Does anyone out there believe, that in your dreams, your subconscious, your body/mind is telling you something?
I’m slightly freakin out over here.
At least two nights a week (7 day week) I have a pregnancy dream.
And, I’ve started to feel random, almost daily, twitches/spasms in the lower abdomen area.
Have I taken a pregnancy test?
But, I don’t trust the pee-sticks.
Because they lied to me the last time I thought I was pregnant. Many times.
Some. Such as a sore boob (yes, boob – not boobs), just like the last time I thought I was pregnant – and it was the same boob! But, I blew that off as pre-menstrual happenings, and after a few days the soreness went a way (but, still at least a week before my cycle started).
I know what I need to do to clear my paranoia – order the blood test.
You know what? Something must be fucked up with my endocrine system when I don’t know, for a fact, when, and if, I am pregnant! My Mom was telling me she knew immediately when we were conceived. Everyone else I’ve ever talked to knew they were pregnant within weeks of conception. Me? Took about 30 weeks to learn – after a physical exam by a OB (I was probably about 4 weeks at the time of the exam, but he told me that he could “feel” as early as 2 weeks along), and 3-4 OTC pregnancy tests within a five month time span. Fucked up, right?
Needless to say, after my last experience with pregnancy, I am a bit paranoid.
Have I talked to Greg about this?