Philosphy? Here?

Do you believe in Karma?

“Through the law of karma, the effects of all deeds actively create past, present, and future experiences, thus making one responsible for ones own life, and the pain and joy it brings to him/her and others.”

I don’t know if I do; I mean, I get it and in some situations I can see how Karma worked. But, I’m not 100% sold.

Sometimes, though, I feel like what some people go through, heartaches and all, is due to the negative “force” they’ve caused upon others. But, sometimes, I think that’s me doing some “wishful thinking”.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t “wish” for bad things to happen to people; but I do feel those who have have caused pain onto others should feel pain themselves.

I’ll let you in on a ‘secret’…

A little history: my ex father-in-law wasn’t the nicest person; I’m sure his intentions were to be nice, but I saw through it. He was very controlling; narcissistic; and… just all around negative. I didn’t care for him and I honestly felt bad for my his wife, my exes mom, my ex mother-in-law. I believe, at the point I entered into the family, it was a love-less marriage.

With that being said, when my ex told me, after we had split, that his dad was in a coma due to a ruptured aneurysm, I was happy (not like giddy, jumping up and down happy, but happy that others in the family are finally going to be out from his negativity). I was hoping he would die. I told this to Greg and he told me to take it back. I refused. Greg never met that “man”; never heard how he talked to his wife, children, and only grandchild; never saw how he treated his family. And, partially, it was because of him, my ex father-in-law, that I decided to stop seeing the family and ultimately ended my relationship with my ex (again, no the only, and whole reason, for the end of marriage – but it was a factor). I don’t wish for people to die, literally or figuratively. But, a slight part of me does hope that those who have cause me (or others – speaking generally) pain, or some other ‘negative’ emotion, that karma will eventually catch-up with them.

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Not to get too engrossed in beliefs, religion, and “the universe”… I don’t know what I believe in; at least 100%. I think I believe in “what goes around, comes around”, and “everything happens for a reason”. But, it’s really hard to believe in anything when one has struggled all their life (childhood and all).

When Greg was approved for the new credit card and saw the limit, he told me that he prayed to God for help and felt this was the answer to his prayer. I don’t know if I whole-heart-idly believe in that; to me, being approved and with the limit given was due to our hard work over the last year and a half on improving our credit. But, if I were to believe in what Greg believes in, about God and prayer, then I might agree with him.

I believe I am too much of a realist; the cliché “seeing is believing” theory (or possibly philosophical realism).

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Going to end it here; can get way too involved, especially after reading all the different types of “realism”.