None of This, Some of That

The weekend went by way too fast (what else is new?), but it was a good fast.

Sunday was spent at Greg’s Mom’s place to visit with his family. I had a nice time. I like Greg’s family better than I liked Adam’s Family (yes, start humming the tune…) although, to give credit, Adam’s Moms side of the family was a lot better than his Dad’s side (but, then again, I only had issues with his Dad and everyone but his grandparents). It’s kinda funny, in a sense, to hear Greg’s bothers make fun of Greg (and some of his exes) and tell embarrassing stories of each other; as the saying goes: Boys will be boys.

Pat adores Amelia and it’s so cute to see them together; he was constantly taking pictures and video clips of Amelia while we were there.

Amelia and Pat

Tickle Baby

Chit Chat

Pat leaves next Wednesday and won’t be back until August, when he’s being reassigned and heading out to Texas for 41 weeks; which brought up a subject: our wedding. I asked Greg if he’d like to get married in August, before Pat leaves, to make sure Pat can be in the wedding. So, the wedding date might be moved up, again.

In other news…

Two of our friends (that are married), Tim and Brooke have just announced that they are expecting their first bundle of joy!! Greg and I are so excited over this news! We’ve watched how much they enjoyed Amelia’s company at each RSC (the first one was when Amelia was two and a half months old) and Brooke said, many times, how Amelia’s personality and happiness makes her want to have a baby (nevermind all the negativity in the world).

Which is kind of weird because I had a pretty surreal dream that I found out I was pregnant (by blood work and a home pregnancy test) and when I awoke, because I had to pee really bad, I was slightly hesitant to go thinking I had a home pregnancy test and was thinking about using it, only to realize that I didn’t have the hpt so I could pee without thinking about “it”. But, I haven’t been able to shake the dream and now I’m considering buying a hpt just to put my mind at ease (or at least I hope so). Isn’t it annoying when dreams feel so real you can’t tell the difference (of life and a dream)?

Otherwise, there isn’t much to write about (well, there is but I am being too lazy). It was a slow and boring Monday in my world. How about yours?

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Awesome Day!

This has been an amazing day; the best day (aside from Amelia’s First birthday) of 2008, thus far!!

Work was a little challenging but around 11:30am there was a delivery for me:

Ediable Surprise

It’s a Edible Arrangement complete with chocolate dipping sauce (and serving dish in the shape of a strawberry)!! The strawberries (or ‘roses’) were so freaking good! And the chocolate covered banana’s were delicious (though a little weird for me). Oh my god was the pineapple (‘dasies’) … just so freaking amazing (I love pineapple!!). I walked around the office sharing the basket with everyone (I didn’t want the fruit to go to waste) and that thing weighed about 10+ pounds! And this was all from Greg!

White and Milk Chocolate Dipped Banana

Wonder what held the fruit together?

Head of Lettus

a head of lettuce – not even pulled apart! I was thinking Styrofoam but I guess this think is completely edible!

Around 11:50 I receive a text message from my girlfriend, Michele, and she’s telling me that she’s in town (was at Arundel Mills Mall killing some time) and said she was going to stop by the office before heading home!

Michele in her car

Michele had a few birthday gifts for me and Amelia!! She bought Amelia a new outfit – for next year! – and a toy and Michele bought me a bag of Poppycock and beautiful necklace and an amazing card:

Poppycock and card
Best Friends

The rest of the work day was a nightmare! Too many people took the day off (don’t know why the supervisors allowed this…) and the rest of us were just overwhelmed. Then, around 3:30pm the remote server crashed and we weren’t able to access any of our NY or NJ customer accounts, and guess which customers were calling in. Yeah. The server wasn’t restored by 6pm!! We were telling customers to call back or to give us their information and that we would call them once service was back up. It was fun, like totally.

Greg calls me on my way to getting Amelia and tells me that we’re going out to dinner! Nothing special, just Bennigan’s. But, it was fun nonetheless! Amelia was being adorable and showed us her new ‘trick’ – she will shake her head to make her hair swoosh all over the place, and if I mimic her she will crack up! I caught it on tape:

Dinner was nice; I wasn’t really all that hungry so I only ordered some chicken tenders and shared them with Amelia.

Once we were home, Greg showed me what we’re doing for dinner tomorrow night:

Dinner Ticket
Reservations

We have tickets to the Medieval Times restaurant!! I’ve been wanting to go here since the place opened a few years ago! I am so freaking excited about the show!!

I checked the mail and guess what was in there!!!

No, not the W-2 I’ve been waiting for but…

I'm DIVORCED!!!

My divorce is final!!! It’s all done!!! I am ‘free’!!! FINALLY!!!!

Oh my god has this day been amazing!! Like a really amazing day!

Yesterday

I volunteered to leave early since the phones were still down around 2. I came home and started a load of laundry and then ran out to get my eyebrows waxed

Let the torture begin
Eyebrows BEFORE (the unibrow)No unibrow! 

yeah, it was a much needed waxing.

After my torture session (i hate the tweezing) I ran over to the AT&T store to talk about my phone; I was having issues with it already. It locked up twice the other day!!

Unsafe ATT Store

 My friend, Lisa (the one that works with me), was at this store when a robbery occurred! She and the other customers and employees were locked into a storage closet! And the robbers took all their cellphones so no one would call for help. I don’t remember how they got out but since then there as been a cop assigned to the store.

I decided that I am not going to just deal with the phone issues (moving forward) and if I am still within my 30 day return policy – I’m going for it. So, I ended up buying the newer Blackjack model.

New; On the Right: Old

The new phone is awesome! The layout is much nicer for me (has a wheelie thing in the center instead of the dial thingy on the side) since I use my left hand for just about everything phone related. Also, it comes in red – my favorite color!

Saturday:

Tomorrow we’re meeting my Mom down in Waldorf for my birthday lunch and Amelia is going home with her until the 10th. We’re going to miss Amelia so much; greg and I were talking about how we’re going to miss her during dinner tonight. It’s going to be so weird to not have her around; hearing her giggles and squeals of delight when she hears the bath tub water turn on. After lunch, we’re going to head to Arundel Mills Mall and kill some time at Dave and Busters (we have free play cards from Greg’s holiday party) and then head over to Medieval Times for the show!

Our plan for Sunday, so far, is to go up to Ikea and get the dresser and night stands we’ve been oogling for the last 6 months.

Sounds like a busy weekend but oh so much fun!

More stuff about stuff

Ugh! Work was so freaking busy today!! But I did receive a wonderful surprise from Greg this afternoon: Lunch!! Greg came over to my job during my lunch hour with a surprise lunch from Bill Bateman’s! Greg ordered us some yummy wings and a Chicken Chesapeake (grilled chicken breast topped with crab meat and their crab dip) for me. During lunch Greg and I did some wedding talk (nothing concrete; just discussing when we can begin our venue search) and baseball talk. I am trying and hoping to get opening day tickets for Greg as a present for our first anniversary. At the moment, I can only purchase a package and I don’t want that (though maybe later in the year), I just want a single game purchase! I’m watching the Orioles Hangout like a hawk on any information about when tickets will go on sale for opening day.

Greg told me what my birthday/anniversary present is and I didn’t even bug him about it! He just couldn’t hold it in anymore and asked if I wanted to know and I said yes (I’m just as bad as he is; he knows about my goal to get opening day tickets). So, my present is a Canon PowerShot SD870 IS and he bought a 2GB memory card!!

Canon PowerShot SD870 IS - MY NEW CAMERA!! 

Greg is spoiling me rotten! He bought me a new laptop (with a matching bag and wireless mouse, and a cooling fan to place the laptop on), he proposed to me with the ring I fell in love with when we were ring shopping (and he proposed with my family present which has more meaning than words can describe), he bought me a new game for my Nintendo DS and now he has bought me a new camera; and a nice one at that!! The camera is due to be shipped on the 23rd, so I actually have to wait for this gift! In the mean time I read the specs and reviews and looked up pictures taken with the camera on Flickr and I am so freaking excited about it! It even has a 28mm lens so I can take wide angel pictures!

Also, my new phone has been shipped and should be here by Wednesday (my stalking to FedEx’s website has begun)!! I have so many new ‘toys’ to play with (laptop – loving it!!; cellphone; camera; video editing software, etc). Oh! I don’t know how I am going to divide my time between all of them. Ha ha!

Amelia has her one year check up tomorrow. I am very curious to know how much she weighs (as I am always curious about her weight) and even more curious to know how tall she is! I swear she’s grown an inch in the last month! Oh! and I forgot to mention!!! Amelia took two whole steps on Saturday all by herself! And she did it again on Sunday (even when Greg’s Mom and brother were here) and this morning! She’s going to be walking very soon (it took less than a week for her to begin crawling once she did her first few crawls without ‘splatting’ (when Amelia just splats onto the floor – as well call it). I am still in shock that she is a year old now. Gosh, I can’t believe 2007 is over with and how busy that year was. I went through so much in such a short time (still working on my 2007 Review; although I haven’t touched it since last week). I can’t believe that Greg has made all three of my big wishes come true (and he didn’t even know about two of them) and it’s a weird feeling to realize the things that I was wishing for actually come to fruition! Like, dreams aren’t suppose to come true; you’re suppose to have them so you have something to keep you motivated, and yet I’ve had THREE COME TRUE! I don’t have any more dreams to wish for! Well, I do have a few more but I know those will come true with hard work and determination (buying our first house mainly) and sticking to our goals. 

Speaking of goals, Greg was approved for a personal loan! With this loan he is able to pay off his car and his Dell account and still have enough money for us to finally put something into a savings account, do a little Ikea shopping (night stands and a tall dresser are our goal), purchase our plane tickets for our trip to Atlanta, GA and Mobile, AL this spring, and other small odds and ends. Our goal is to maintain our improving credit and establish a decent credit history for 2008. Then in 2009 we’re considering applying for a personal loan (maybe $10K) for the wedding and honeymoon and anything extra from that loan is going to go into a high interest CD to start putting away for a down payment on a house. With this current loan, we’re going to be saving around $300 a month so this is a win-win situation for us. Oh, and Greg can pick up the check tomorrow!!

In other, more girly, news…

This is my off week and the hormones (the physical ones too) are already wreaking havoc on me – more physically than emotionally. My back has been aching so much today. At times I wonder if it’s the bra (as it’s a little too big) so I keep adjusting it with no relief. Then, my stomach feels so physically full, like extended as if I were pregnant, that it aches; not a stomach ache but a ache like it’s being stretched. Oh, and the fatigue is still within me, though that decreased some but not all (I even fell asleep on the couch yesterday afternoon). I don’t want to take ‘the test’ but I’m starting to wonder if i should just to rule that thought out. I’ll wait it out and see if I get my cycle this week…

On the emotional end, I felt a little anger this evening; Greg left his email account open and of course I snooped (he knows I’m going to look if he leaves it open – mainly to make sure he’s keeping his promise to me), there is some positiveness in one regard but on the other I became pissed with a few emails from his ex that were exchanged a few months ago (Greg needs to clean out his sent folder – he has emails going back to 2005! Also, i didn’t get mad at Greg, just what impression I received from her emails and replies). I just don’t understand some people, and this is related to what I wrote back in December; I would elaborate, but I promised Greg a few things regarding his ex and the ‘blog wars’ that could ensue (although neither of us have read her blog for a while as we’ve discussed a few things about the content and the hypocrisy… yadda yadda yadda). So, I should end this paragraph before I say more than I should.

I think that’s all I have to write about. It’s been a few weeks (I think) since I’ve written anything of such volume (1178 words at current count). Guess I should go to bed (even though I could sleep in if Amelia allows). Oh, and I cancelled my dentist appointment; it was for a cleaning anyway and those are easy to re-schedule. I seriously over booked my day! I had an appointment at 10, 12, and 2, plus we had other errands to run in-between the appointments. I was going to drive myself nuts with all this driving.

Also, more on the wedding talk! I was talking to my Mom on the way home and I asked her if she wanted to come wedding dress shopping with me when I am ready and she replied with “Of Course!”. I told her that I didn’t think she would be excited about this wedding because it would be my second but she reassured me that she’s more excited because she feels Greg is an amazing person and thinks we’re perfect for each other so she is very excited about our wedding and marriage (though feels we should use what money we would pay for a wedding to put towards a house). Hearing my Mom say all these positive things about Greg makes me more excited about marrying him. When Adam and I wed, I told my Mom she could plan the reception as I didn’t care; and seriously I didn’t. I wasn’t excited about marrying Adam. This time it’s different; I am so freaking excited about marrying Greg and planning our wedding. I get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about walking down the isle towards him and seeing his excitement and happiness on his face. I never imagined how good it feels to be inlove with someone. They always say ‘you know’ when you’ve met your soulmate and I never believed it whole-heartily because i never felt anything remotely as I do now than when I was with Adam; I was so off with Adam and I second guessed many decisions (and many lessons learned) but everything I feel with Greg is concrete and no second guessing what-so-ever. What an amazing feeling this is.

Anyway, I’ve got to go to bed – going to lay on the heating pad for a bit to relax what muscles are causing my discomfort…

Yeah … No (and more)

Um.

Yeah.

It didn’t happen.

Greg and I were just as lazy today as we were yesterday. Although, we did go out. We did an uneventful trip to Costco and placed the birthday cake order for Amelia’s First Birthday and picked up some odds and ends (like tin foil) and then went over to Target (no run in with his ex) and bought a lot of Christmas stuff for next year at 75% off (Christmas wrap, cards, etc), as well as some new pajama’s and sippy cups for Amelia.

We did do a little more laundry today and I kinda sorta cleaned up – some.

Update: Greg and I cleaned the condo. It’s 10:53 as I type.

Moving on…

While cleaning, I came across an old ‘jump drive’ and downloaded the pictures and files from it. There were pictures going back to 2001 (of Kara) and up to 2005 (last PRP Christmas Party):

PRP Party December 2005

and here I am in 2003

Charlie and Jess Christmas 2003

And, here I am for Christmas 2007:

Greg and Jess MBC Christmas Party 2007

a lot of changes between those years! The 2003 photo (the middle one) was a few months after I married Adam (that’s my wedding dress that I am wearing) and the 2005 picture (the top one) is about 6 months after Adam moved out (and Greg and I were friends at the time but he didn’t want to be my ‘date’ so Michele and I went together. Two days after the picture was taken my aunt passed away. I remember my brother and Aaron coming to the party and my brother was so upset and crying about my aunt). Then, there is the final picture of Greg and me taken this year, 2007, for his company holiday party.

And, here’s a picture of Adam (in case any of ya’ll were wondering what he looked like):

Adam circa 2003

that was my favorite picture of him. He’s changed some over the years (less hair on the head), but not much (though I haven’t seen him in nearly a year and a half).

So, that was a small trip down memory lane. Well, sorta. I don’t feel any nostalgia with the pictures (other than remembering my aunt dying from cancer); the pictures (the ones from yester year) don’t really hold any emotional reaction for me.

meh. don’t have enough mental energy to finish the thoughts. It’s 12:04am and I am heading off to bed.

Mind Musings

I have so many thoughts going through my mind!

  • I’m thinking about my upcoming divorce hearing and saying good bye to Adam (mentally);
  • The odd dream I had last night about Greg’s ex;
  • Wedding stuff, mainly finding our site for the ceremony and reception;
  • The slow realization that Greg is going to be my future husband;
  • Van’s offer to pay for my tuition so I can finish my medical assisting/nursing certification/degree;
  • And much more…

Mainly, I am thinking about my wedding and divorce with little bits of the dream I had last night; which I’ll start off with first…

Last night, I dreamt that Greg and I were living with his ex temporarily. It was very awkward for me in the dream, even though we (Greg’s ex and I) were rarely home at the same time. Then, at some point in the dream, the exes sister spies on me and tells the ex what I’ve been doing (supposedly) and then the ex leaves all these notes around the house for me (and they weren’t very positive notes). The same day I discovered the notes around the house, she comes home while I am there and I confront her about the stuff she’s writing to me. And, somehow, after talking about everything we become friends. And, I recall thinking in the dream how odd it felt realizing that we’ve basically ‘made up’ and were actually talking as friends. Very strange dream, no?

My second thought is about saying good bye, permanently, to Adam.  Honestly, I am not that upset about saying good bye as I have no emotional attachment to him what-so-ever; but I thought I would be able to send an email every once in a blue moon to say ‘Hi’ and see what he’s up to (just as I’ve done since 2005 when he moved out). But, I confronted him (via email as that’s the only means of communication I have to him) about the impression I had that he doesn’t want to be hearing from me for non divorce related stuff. You see, I’ve always remained friends with all my exes, even if I started a new relationship or if they started a new relationship; it just wasn’t odd to me. But, Adam is different; he’s a very private person and even though I’m not asking him private questions, I got the feeling that he doesn’t want to be hearing from me after the divorce. Which, as I’ve mentioned, is fine. After all, we need to close certain chapters from our past and move on to start the new chapters. I don’t think I’ll ‘miss’ him in any sense. I guess, in a sense, I received closure from him when he, more or less, confirmed what I thought. So, that is that.

Now, onto the wedding stuff! Last night I bought my first wedding magazine!! I bought the winter edition of The Knot, the magazine version of the website for things in the DC, VA, MD area. And, today, I read that magazine from cover to cover! I highlighted things of interest and worth looking into and checked out a few vendors and potential wedding/ceremony websites.

Even though, as of today, I have 653 days until my wedding, I want to pick out my location; and it’s slightly difficult because I don’t know how many guests we’re going to invite vs. attend. Greg thinks we’ll easily have 150 attendees; I think he’s wrong. Plus, if we have a wedding with that many guests, it’s really going to be financially stressful for us (I, without mentioning anything to my family – as in asking, am not expecting help from our families for our wedding, especially since I’m a repeat bride (sorta)). I am expecting something smaller, like around 75 guests. The second topic of discussion is where to host our wedding and reception. Greg said he wants to do something exotic and feels that if we hold our wedding and reception at a park, that it’s too traditional. Greg and I view the word ‘traditional’ in terms of a wedding completely different; to me, a traditional wedding is a wedding that is held in a church and the reception in a banquet hall. So far, Greg and I have added Ripkin Stadiumas a possible ceremony/reception site. My Mom, on the other hand, would like us to have our wedding reception (as least) at her house. Granted, there are 20 acres to fit everyone, and there is a small beach where we could have the bon fire, but I feel it would be too much of a drive for everyone, and that there are no hotels near by for the guests (since EVERYONE would need a hotel room); if Mom lived closer, then I would seriously consider it (after all, my other wedding reception was held at home in Churchton). I believe the planning would be easier on me if I knew how much money I had to work with. But, I want to know how much everything is going to cost before I set my budget… it feels like I’m in a ‘catch 22’ regarding this part of the planning. Eh, as Greg says, we have plenty of time. Oh, and another item we dicussed was our “save the date” notices – we’re going to send them out this summer. We’re thinking magnets so everyone can put it on the fridge and, hopefully, not forget.

So, not too much going on.

Although, I really should be planning Amelia’s First Birthday Party, as I only have 2 weeks (eek!!). Guess Greg and I will work on that this weekend…

Thank Goodness!

The company I work for has given all their employees a paid half day so we can catch-up on any holiday errands. I am so thinkful that my half day is today and that I am able to lay in bed, watch Fresh Prince of Bel Air while the washer and dryer are running and upload the videos from the limo ride onto YouTube so I can finally complete the post about the Holiday Party this past Sunday.

Also, while I am working on all of the above, I am going to try and make a few DVD’s with this amazing laptop of mine for Christmas presents. I just hope my plan works.

Another reason that I am so thankful today is because my cold, or whatever I seem to have, is getting a little better. Not a whole lot, but enough for me to notice a slight difference. I still have the stuffy nose and sore throat (as well as a voice that is about an octive deeper than normal) but my over all well being is better.

Oh, and ANOTHER reason I am thankful today is because my follow-up visit with the dentist this afternoon was great! The healing is going along fine and it looks like everything is great. I scheduled an appointment for a cleaning in Januay and then I am going to schedule an appointment for a few fillings after that. I can only deal with one dental thing at a time after what I just went through.

Also, ANOTHER thing that I am thankful today is my divorce update!!! I called the court house this morning to check on the status of my order of default and the judge granted it on 12.17.07!!! Now, I just wait for the letter with the Master of Something-or-other, shedule a hearing and then I’m pretty much done! Adam will have 15 days to respond (Accept or Decline) what the hearing declares (divorce final or needs more ‘work’) and if he doesn’t repond then I am granted the divorce! Isn’t that great!! Just when I thought this was never going to end…

So, today, dispite the cold I have, has been a pretty good day.