What’s New?

I’ve lost 60 pounds! Holy smokes, y’all. My clothes are too big, my bra’s are too big, even my underwear is too big. Yet, I haven’t gone shopping for new clothes because I hate spending money on myself; my psychiatrist thinks that’s unusual (me not spending money on clothes, etc.). Honestly, I don’t even know what size I am because I continue to wear my old clothes, and plan to do so until they’re literally falling off of me (in which case, they’re starting to do… I wore one of Greg’s belts yesterday for the first time). This whole weight-loss surgery has been a ‘hurry up and wait’ thing for me. I’m excited to see where it will take me, and I want to get there as soon as possible, but I know it’s going to take time.

Greg starts his new job in a couple of weeks. It’ll be an adjustment to him going back to work after nearly 5 years (since being laid off), but we’re both excited. His training is going to be 4 weeks long! Then, afterwards, we hope he gets the schedule he’s selected which he’ll be working a night shift (until midnight).

With Greg working, Sofia will be going to daycare full-time for the first time in her 3.5 years of life. Also, since the training is 4 weeks long, Amelia will be going to my Mom’s for a month.

My job has been going well. We’re going to be moving offices towards the end of the year. It’ll be weird with a new commute; I’ve been doing the current one for nearly 10 years! But, I’m excited about the new office. It’ll be in downtown Baltimore, right on the water, with amazing views and a lot of new amenities.

Amelia is graduating from the 3rd grade next week. Good grief time is flying by. I can’t believe she’s nearly 10 years old, and nearing the end of her years in elementary school. I soo don’t feel old enough to have a soon-to-be middle school-er. Not at all. Also, Amelia made honor roll this entire school year. So proud of her! She’s doing really well in math (probably better than me), and reading (she’s above grade level).

Sofia has finally graduated to big-girl status by being 100% in underwear. No more pull-ups and diapers for this gal! I’m so proud of her as well. Even at bedtime. And, we haven’t had a single accident in the past 3-4 weeks that she’s been wearing undies.

Greg has completed his final ‘step’ in terms of medical clearance for his turn at the surgery. We’re just waiting for his next appointment with the surgeon to schedule his date.

This summer is going to fly by. A lot of new changes and routines, and I can’t wait!

It is what it is

Life. The good, the bad. The challenges, and strengths needed… sometimes, it’s just too much.

I received a small inheritance from my grandma. It’s actually more than I was ‘day dreaming’ about; you know, ‘what if we receive XX, then we can do YY’. A part of me wants to use the funds (note: I did not say spend) for debt reduction purposes, stocking up on household items so, when the money does run out we won’t run out of paper towels, laundry soap, etc. But, there’s also this part that wants me to horde the money because I know there will be a point in time that our every day income won’t be enough to cover our needs.

I have decided to use the funds to pay for a trip to Disney World at the end of the year. Sofia has been asking, literally on a daily bases, that she wants to see Mickey and Minnie. And, I feel she’ll get a hoot out of the whole experience – and a fun way to bring in her 3rd birthday.

Some of the funds are going to be spent on a lawyer. Then, some of the funds are going towards clothing for everyone (more for the girls and Greg)… and, the rest, I guess, will be stashed away for whatever is needed.

I recently had an interview for a Sr. Business Analysis position. I think it went well. I really hate doing interviews; i suck as selling myself, and I find it uncomfortable talking about myself. I applied for this position not know what it pays, so I hope I’m not disappointed.

I enrolled for a course this summer, but I had to withdraw; there’s just too much going on and I can’t focus on the class work, much less find time to do the course work. I’m hoping that by the time fall semester starts, the chaos at work will have died down. I’ve been assigned to ‘Special Project’ since February and I’ve been enjoying the new work – I’ve done a lot of UAT (user acceptance testing), which has taught a lot of ‘behind the scenes’ stuff that goes into the Care, and company, Dept. I’ve also been able to network a little more and develop ‘go to’ lists for certain areas (and I’ve been added to theirs). I hope I get to travel for work in the near future and meet some of these co-workers in person.

Greg and I have been talking about moving out west — to Washington or Oregon state. It would be a two year goal, to save up and such, to make the move. I’m all for it, it’s Greg that is scared. It’s a big move, but I feel it would do us good. The girls will be young enough, yet old enough, to enjoy the new state, yet have memories of Maryland. Additionally, we can visit Alaska by cruise! I’m sure Greg would love to go back to Alaska (for a visit); heck, I’d love to move there, but Greg says ‘no’ on that one.

My mind is running at random; there’s more to go into details on, but I don’t feel I should.

Baby Steps

Today is my oldest daughters birthday. She is now eight years old. I took a half day from work and surprised with with cupcakes at school; the whole class room was excited! Amelia asked me to stay longer and I told her that I had to go back to work. That was a lie. I had intentions of doing some other things, mainly surprising her yet again by being home when she got off the bus.

The ‘other things’ I had to do were to go to the gym and talk about membership. And, today, I now how a gym membership (as does Greg). This is the ‘baby step’ into my goals for 2015. I chatted with their personal trainer, whom was friendly and seemed to be “fat friendly” too. I explained that I like to workout in a group setting, such as the cardiovascular classes (read: Zumba) as well as some sort of ‘work out’ to build my endurance and stamina. The personal trainer dude totally got what I was saying. That was nice. And. the ‘sales’ dude was friendly. He knocked off some money ’cause I don’t have the need for the tanning booths, massage chairs, and half off water/bar items. And, Greg has no intentions of doing any of the classes. So, our monthly cost is $40 for both of us. Not too bad.

Tomorrow is my one-on-one with the trainer. I’m excited to see how things go and what he recommends. I’m debating if I should do a seperate journal for the Health 2015 mission… not like I’ve been updating this blog on the regular (except for this month – third post!). Plus, classes began today so we’ll see how much free time I have once everything goes into full swing.

But, I just wanted to put it out there that i’ve been actively working on my goals. Also, if anyone uses MyFitnessPal – look me up!

Spoiled rotten

Greg spoils me rotten!

For my 30th birthday, Greg has bought me an iPhone! And I am in electronic love!

I’ve had to hold out on the exploring until Amelia went to bed, but so far I am loving it!

I am going to use the carry-out finder to order Chinese tonight!

And then there were…

6 Days until we fly.

This time next week we will be somewhere in the Gulf of Mexico, making our way to the Caribbean Sea heading towards the Grand Cayman Island. I have no idea how giddy with excitement Greg and I (but, probably more Greg than me) will be by this point next week. Gah! I can’t believe I’ll be on a cruise ship NEXT SUNDAY!

And, it still hasn’t sunk in – my level of excitement is no where near where I feel it should be! Actually, I believe I am starting to feel a little bummed that the trip is here; I’ve been looking forward to this cruise since last February, and I won’t have anything to look forward to (vacation wise) once the cruise is said and done. Well, we are thinking of a few things but we can’t really focus on those things until March. But, still.

In other news, Greg and I will probably be attending 3-4 weddings for 2009; this past new years two co-workers (one at his office, and one at mine) got engaged  and are planning for a wedding in the fall.

Michele moved up her wedding to March 28 (from October 10); Greg is a little freaked because he’s their photographer and he doesn’t feel he will be ready (at least equipment wise) by then. I assured him that he will do fine.

This past Saturday was my wedding shower, and belive it or not Greg and I forgot our cameras! So, my cousin took at the pictures and I’m waiting for her to email them, or post them on her MySpace page – then I will share with the world.

Today we spent a few hours with Greg’s Mom. We also celebrated Amelia’s 2nd birthday with her and Greg’s brother, Ken.  It’s nice to feel comfortable around the in-laws; I didn’t feel so comfortable around my ex’s due to my ex’s father – i just hated the guy and didn’t want to within earshot of him… but, Greg’s family is nothing like my ex’s and it’s so nice and refreshing. Even Greg’s brother, Ken, has warmed up to me – giving hugs and chatting with me and Amelia! Greg’s other brother, Pat, warmed up to me at the very beginning –  we even text each other on the occasion … and it’s fun to make fun of Greg (and some of his stupid decisions from his past – like leaving his favorite job to move to NY state for a girl) – in the loving manor that we do.

So, this is the final week of ‘normal’ life before I leave for ‘vacation’ life.  Greg and I have sorta started to get our home ready – we took down the Christmas tree and other decorations! I expressed my desire to have the place clean before we leave so that when we return we won’t have anything to do other than laundry and grocery shopping (as well as copious amounts of sleep – as I am sure we’ll need it).

During the long drive home last night (from my Cousins house), I asked Greg if he was really, truly, ready to be a married man.  Of course he said yes, and I asked him how does he know. And, he said the most beautiful things to me that I actually started to tear up! Basically, he broke down his past 2 ‘serious’ relationships and why he ignored the red flags and he told me that, if he could create the ‘perfect, dream girl’ he can’t think of anything else that I already posses as a person (physical looks don’t count when you’re thinking of the ‘perfect person’). To Greg, I am his dream girl. Awesome! So, we talked a little more about being married (I was so tired and I need him to talk to me to keep my eyes open) and he says that he doesn’t feel anything will change, to him, once we’re married because, to him, we’re already married. I begged to differ and explained why (which lead to the next topic of how does he know he’s ready to be married) – Greg and/or I could walk away and leave the relationship and there wouldn’t be any ‘mess’ to clean up (read: divorce) – there’s no real commitment (a ultimate, higher level, commitment) to each other like there is to being married; to me, when we’re married it means that Greg (and I) are going to be together in every sense of the word.  To me, at least, there will be a different feeling once Greg becomes my husband and I become his wife – Greg is promising to spend the rest of his life with me (and I him). Greg has chosen me as the one that makes him the happiest and that he wants me continue to make him happy for the rest of his life. That means a lot to me. Of course, it helps to know that during our whole friendship/court-ship, as Greg and I were denying our feelings for each other; telling each other that we were not interested in a relationship, much less marriage… that we’re actually going to marry each other! I’ve said it before, and I’m going to say it again – Greg has fulfilled every dream I’ve ever had since meeting him. Something I’ve never, ever, experienced – during my nearly 30 years of life – before. Guess that Magic 8 ball really is magic! LOL

Oh look, it’s 11:30pm and I have to work this week (4 out of 5 days). Guess I should get to bed, huh?

3 weeks and counting

That’s right!

Three weeks until Thanksgiving!

What are your plans?

My Grandma, Amelia and Olivia’s “GiGi”, is hosting again (which… we wish she wern’t only because her house isn’t large nor toddler proof).  Last year’s Thanksgiving wasn’t so much because Amelia was only 10 months old, and Olivia was 3.5 months… pretty easy to handle. This year is going to be completely different.

Greg and I had appointments today with a dermatologist. Yeah, we went in together. I have psoriasis/eczema and my boo-boo is acting up again. Greg just has a boo-boo. Greg’s boo-boo is a simple procedure to remove; mine requires a surgeon. Figures. But, I am happy that the doc gave me 2 prescriptions for the psoriasis/eczema so by the time the cruise rolls around, my feet will be all pretty and “normal” looking (my feet are where I am mostly affected). I was content with the visit. Greg was not and doesn’t plan on returning. He’s so gosh darn picky about his physicians and their office appearance (which is what he’s judging his like or dislike on). I argued that he didn’t like his first visit with his PCP but he’s returned 4 more times – to which he replied “yeah, and I’m surprised that I did”. He can be such a hypocrit sometimes.

Babysitter informed us that she’s taking the week of Thanksgiving off, which means my Mom will be watching Amelia since Greg and I can not take any time off (we have the time available, just saving it for the cruise). I have a feeling the Babysitter is going to do the same for the week of Christmas.

5 weeks until my company’s Holiday Party! My supervisor and I are excited about the dinner cruise in Baltimore. Greg and I talked about taking one together many times (even within weeks of meeting each other), but the cost was never in our budget. Recently, Greg told me he was thinking of celebrating my 30th birthday, along with close friends and family, on a dinner cruise but then thought if we were going to do that, we might as well make it a wedding reception (which would be cool – celebrate our marriage AND my 30th birthday all in one).

Speaking of cruises, I checked NCL’s site today to see what the current rate is for our cruise and it went UP $30!! Right now, we’re saving as much as $70/pp. My brother got a better deal than me because he used a travel agent (he has a subscription with http://www.cheaptrips.com or something like that); he booked a balcony and a stateroom for about $2K total!

I’m tired and heading to bed.

I Can Haz Kake

Greg's Birthday Cake

We can haz kake!

I can not wait to taste this!! The sucker is heavy too. It’s in the fridge as I type. I would have a better picture if my batteries hadn’t of died, so they’re charging right now. But, I wanted to show the cake as I won’t be able to write once we wake up Amelia, and bathe her (she was a sticky nightmare) and head off to Gracie’s 2nd Birthday party and then off to Greg’s 30th Birthday gathering. Busy, busy, day.

 

Also, in wedding news: We’re going to elope (well, we’re about 90% sure we’re going to do this)! I’ll tell you where later…