Is the week over yet?

I hate this cold. I hate that Amelia is sick and can not, or will not, go to bed/sleep. I hate that I am so freaking tired yet can’t go to bed.

Boo.

Ugh, and work was a bitch today. I didn’t go home, though was very tempted to, because they needed the support. At least I was able to finish the photo/memory book for Greg’s grandparents today. Here are a few pictures of the book (the rest are on Flickr):

Photo/Memory Book - Page One

Photo/Memory Book - Page Two

I finished the book in the morning, when it was slow, to which that was the only slow time during the day. I really had to drag myself out of the office to go to the bank and deposit that state check and then I really had to fight with myself to return to work. It was a rough day.

Plans for the weekend!

Well, after many weeks of Mom begging me to drop Amleia off for another extended stay, we’ve decided to take Amelia to Mom’s this weekend. It will work out well because we’re going to celebrate Easter at my Mom’s this year so since we’re heading down anyway – might as well take Amelia home with us after Easter (not sure if that sentice came out right – probably not – my brain is so not working right now). Once Amelia is with Mom, we’ve talked about doing some registry shopping: creating our wedding registry! This is, of course, if we’re feeling well by Saturday. And on Sunday we’re planning on visiting the Md Science Ctr (for real this time) and to see the Body Worlds exhibit, finally!

That’s all for now.

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Bored and Blogging

Oy! What a weekend… Amelia was cranky the entire weekend and that confused Greg and me until we noticed that she’s drooling excessively and has shown signs that her ear is hurting (by cupping her hand over her ear), but she doesn’t have a fever; we’re assuming her crankiness is due to another tooth pushing through (thus the reason for her earache), but if her symptoms of the earache don’t improve then I’m going to call her pediatrician.  

Otherwise, our Sunday went like this… 

Sadly, I don’t remember how the morning started so I will start with Costco. Greg and I did some serious shopping and renewed our membership (I remember the night I went to Costco to open a membership; it was my first week back at work and Amelia was just about 6 weeks old). We bought Amelia a new dress for the spring/summer – she picked it out. The size we bought was 18 mos. (which she’ll be in July) because we figure she’ll be wearing that size by then. That dress has been the first thing we bought for Amelia since November and in a size she’ll be wearing in the future, which got me wondering about clothing between 12 months and 18 months: I don’t think there is a size in between. I’m used to clothing for Amelia being between age ranges: 0-3 mos, 3-6 mos, 6-9 mos and then 12 mos – that made the first year of shopping easy but what happens once you reach and pass 12 months; I haven’t seen any clothing for 12-15 mos? Maybe toddlers don’t change much from 12 to 18 months? Maybe I’m over thinking this and I’m sure I’ll learn how the clothing works once it’s time to buy her new clothes. 

Continuing with the Costco shopping… It’s so cool to open the freezer and see it stuffed with food! And, surprisingly (as it was something we intended to buy) we didn’t buy a single microwaveable meal. I (since I am the one that cooks most of our dinners) picked out our meats (hamburger, pork chops, and round eye roasts) and planned what to use them for. And, to try something different, I bought a chunk of beef tip for dinner (Sunday’s dinner). To make a long, detailed, story short, we spent about two hours and $275 dollars (including the renewal fee).  

I must mention the best thing Greg and I bought the weekend we went to Ikea – the .59 jumbo blue bag because that one little bag carried so much and made transporting all the items from Costco to our condo so much easier (for Greg) to carry up three flights of stairs. 

Once we were home (I’m debating if I want to talk about the stinkiest, messiest, worst diaper I’ve ever changed in my entire life. For the first time I was literally gaging from the smell of what came out of Amelia), we put the food away and I separated the meats for individual use (l learned my lesson with a package of chicken from Giant last week; it’s incredibly difficult to take apart chicken breasts when they’re brick hard).

Yeah, boring day – huh? 

Let’s see, it was about 3pm when we made it home and Amelia went down for a nap at 4 (thankfully) and slept until 5:50! During that time Greg started to organize all his ‘stuff’; we bought a bookcase on Saturday and Greg assembled it and was determined to put the books and other stuff that was taking up space in his closet onto the bookcase. I continued with the laundry and just vegged on the couch.  

Around 6pm I being dinner by placing the hunk of beef tip in the oven and begin working on the Anniversary Weekend post. 

Around 7pm I start working on the other items for dinner (rolls and mashed potatoes) while Greg gives Amelia her bath. 

Around 7:45 my mom calls and we chat for a bit while I watched Amelia so Greg could eat dinner. Amelia kept trying to take the phone from me to talk to Nana Sue and would end up pushing buttons or hanging up (just once).  

Dinner was fabulous! Greg said that was the best steak he’s ever had – ever! And he’s right. The steak was so soft and buttery; it was juicy and full of flavor and just amazing. That has to be, hands down, the best meal I’ve cooked since living in the condo (I am a charcoal grill cooker and I’ve cooked some damn good roasts and hamburgers in my time). 

Around 8:30 we tried to put Amelia to bed but we were having the same problem as Saturday night: she just couldn’t fall asleep; she would lay in her crib and talk.

Eventually she fell asleep (around 9:00) and I focused on completing the Anniversary Weekend post and Greg set to go through his closet and all his tubs.  

Greg, if you recall me mentioning, is a pack rat to the umpteenth degree. When we started packing in June he had about 8 storage tubs full of stuff from the last 10+ years. Some things I can understand why he saved them: high school photo, tassel, and mug; memorabilia from MicroProse (his first real job that he loved); a few travel related things and tickets, cards from his 21st birthday, some random items (such as a name tag) from his old friends Doug and Jeff, and a few pictures from when he went to Disney World (just the pictures of him with a few characters; no pictures of his ex). Except Greg has magazines, game boxes, pay stubs, bank statements from when he lived in upstate NY, newspapers, and so much more stuffed into these tubs! His ‘collection’ continues into my closet as well. The last time Greg went through his ‘memory tubs’, he consolidated everything into 3 tubs and last night he’s down to a shoebox for the ‘most important’ stuff and about a half of a tub for the ‘just because’ stuff. I’m proud of him for ‘letting go’ of some of this stuff; it was hard for him to ask himself if he really needed to hold onto some things (magazines, game boxes, etc).  

Um, yeah… we were up until 1:30am. It took me forever to finish the Anniversary Weekend post and I was tempted to stop around 11:30 with the intent to finish later (knowing that I probably wouldn’t even think about it for at least another week – if that) but decided that I made it this far (by this point I was working on the Assateague Island portion of the post) I might as well finish. 

That was my Sunday. 

Monday has been a whole hell of a lot easier (compared to previous Mondays)! I brought in my newest wedding magazine (that was purchased at Target on Saturday and Amelia has since nearly destroyed) and a book, Painless Grammar by Rebecca Elliott, Ph.D. (that I bought at Costco). The magazine provided visual stimulation and the book provided mental stimulation (I wouldn’t hold my breath expecting to see perfect grammar in my posts from this moment on). The book is well written and I am enjoying it; it’s like a little refresher course in English 111, and when I feel that I am capable of taking on a college course in English at least I be able to understand some parts of proper grammar (since I am thinking about taking English 111, online, at the local community college and then move onto creative writing). 

I sent an email to Denise with our flight information and she sounded pretty excited about our upcoming visit. We talked about things Amelia will need while in Michigan (car seat, highchair, stroller, etc) because her friend owns a baby (supply) rental business; clever business to start – I would never have thought about renting items for a baby. I wonder how successful her business is… 

Greg and I have been exchanging emails throughout the day as well; we’ve talked about our Michigan trip, cruise reservations (we haven’t booked, yet), weekend plans since Pat (one of Greg’s younger brothers) has made it home for leave, and just general chit chat. 

Earlier today I was in a review meeting (held monthly) and realized, as I was about sign my name that I need to start using my maiden name. That realization felt so weird to me and I didn’t know how to sign my name! I ended up using the current (though my name has been officially changed at work) and then moving forward I will use my maiden name. When I got out of the review meeting I started ‘practicing’ signing my maiden name. And then, during my lunch hour, I called my bank and credit cards to have my name changed. Now, I just need to go to the MVA to change my name on my license and I have a feeling that is going to be a little more time consuming.  

Thursday, the 21st, Greg and I are going to fill out the paper work and apply for our passports. I can’t believe how much these things cost, but at the same time they’re good for 10 years. I wonder how long it’s going to take for us to physically receive the passports; do we have to pick them up at the post off when they’re ready or will they come in the mail? Guess I’ll find out on Thursday. 

At least I feel the day was productive.

Shopping + Fun = Good Times

I had so much fun shopping! And Greg treated me to a lot of “goodies” at Lane Bryant this afternoon, aside from the three bra’s he bought (one for as little as $6.99 and it’s one of those multi-purpose bras). Good thing I am a quick shopper when it comes to clothes – either I like it or I don’t, I don’t dwell on it (and I usually don’t try the clothes on as well). I only have to return a pair of pants as they’re way too big (my thighs and butt are not thick enough to fill the pants out – the waist is fine). In all, I think we spent about a half hour at Lane Bryant (and Amelia was being a doll the whole time).

Then we were off to Target!! We spent a good two and a half hours and spent nearly $400 ($396.41 to be exact), and we still need to go back for a few things that we couldn’t fit in the cart!

Shopping Cart
Shopping Cart

We bought a new stroller for Amelia, diapers, tons of gerber food, two shelves, two pillows, three towels, two hand towels, trash bags, socks and undies for Greg, two new outfits and pajama’s for Amelia, kitchen items, and I can’t remember what else we bought. We’re going back to get a new car-set for Greg’s car.

It’s so much fun to be able to shop without worrying how much your total is going to be. It’s so rare that Greg and I are able to shop like this; we usually keep to a pretty strict budget and tend to only buy things that we need versus want. We do well, budget wise, but it feels so good to be free of money stress even if it’s just for a weekend.

When we made it home Greg started to assemble the shelves and clean out the closets that we planned to put them in; then he proceeded to clean out his tubs for the third time! Greg is a major pack-rat and with some items I can understand, but with the others – eh? For example: Greg had a backpack that he kept from his freshman year of high school and it had a pop-tart package in it that he had no idea how old it was!! He threw it away AFTER cutting off the tag. Greg has thrown out A LOT of stuff since this past summer (all his pictures, cards, and letters from his ex and old flames, old shirts and jackets, bills from when he lived in NY briefly, old game boxes, etc) but he still has about three tubs full of ‘stuff’ (keep in mind, he had about 8 tubs all together). Greg even has a gift from his exes Mom that he doesn’t use and has been stored in a closet for years. I suggested he throw it out or give it back to his ex as it probably has more sentimental value to her than him. Hey, I used to be a pack-rat as well but quickly got out of that habit when I moved from home to Baltimore in 2002. When I think about keeping something I ask myself is it worth it to keep moving it with me (especially if Greg and I have to move this summer). Some things, yes; for example: I’ve kept all of Amelia’s hospital papers from when she was born and her hand made knitted hat as well as one article of clothing from each stage of her growth. Other than that, all the stuff from my past can fit in a shoe box. And, right now, all that I have from my past is one picture from my wedding and a single sheet of the guest book from the wedding and both these items include the people that are no longer here (my aunt Ellie and Adam’s Grandparents and Dad). I just don’t have a desire to keep things that I won’t look at or see on a regular basis. So, it’s an on going ‘issue’ for Greg to stop being such a pack-rat. He’s doing better, but still feels the need to save certain things (though I don’t see the need).

Once Greg was done with his packing of the tubs (again), we installed Diablo II onto my laptop and I played for about an hour (and I’ll more than likely play again). I played this game once or twice many moons ago and Greg has been wanting to buy the game pack each time we go to Target so this time we bought it. When I look for a game, whether console or PC, I have such a hard time finding something and it’s due to my attention span; I will look at the contents of the game and can tell if I’ll be able to focus on the game or not and generally I don’t buy anything. I tend to like the simple. non methodical thinking games. Games such as Diner Dash (which has a wedding version that’s just as fun). I see games as a way to relax and playing something that is going to tick me off isn’t a way to relax in my mind. I guess I just don’t get into games as others.

Speaking of games, Greg and I were talking about purchasing a Wii with our tax refunds and as we were talking about it we asked ourselves when would we have the time to play it. We hardly watch any TV now a days (I bought two movies on Black Friday that I haven’t even taken out of that annoying plastic wrap) and we haven’t touched our PS2 since July since we spend our time either on the computer, reading a book or magazine, cleaning, or just talking to one another. I would hate to spend the amount of money on a Wii (and all the accessories) and not use it. So, now we’re debating about buying a Wii; which is so weird when a few months ago we couldn’t wait until tax season so we could buy one!

Ugh, I can’t believe it’s almost 1am and I am here writing rather than in bed. This is so going to throw off my sleep schedule!!

Shopping + Fun = Good Times

I had so much fun shopping! And Greg treated me to a lot of “goodies” at Lane Bryant this afternoon, aside from the three bra’s he bought (one for as little as $6.99 and it’s one of those multi-purpose bras). Good thing I am a quick shopper when it comes to clothes – either I like it or I don’t, I don’t dwell on it (and I usually don’t try the clothes on as well). I only have to return a pair of pants as they’re way too big (my thighs and butt are not thick enough to fill the pants out – the waist is fine). In all, I think we spent about a half hour at Lane Bryant (and Amelia was being a doll the whole time).

Then we were off to Target!! We spent a good two and a half hours and spent nearly $400 ($396.41 to be exact), and we still need to go back for a few things that we couldn’t fit in the cart!

Shopping Cart
Shopping Cart

We bought a new stroller for Amelia, diapers, tons of gerber food, two shelves, two pillows, three towels, two hand towels, trash bags, socks and undies for Greg, two new outfits and pajama’s for Amelia, kitchen items, and I can’t remember what else we bought. We’re going back to get a new car-set for Greg’s car.

It’s so much fun to be able to shop without worrying how much your total is going to be. It’s so rare that Greg and I are able to shop like this; we usually keep to a pretty strict budget and tend to only buy things that we need versus want. We do well, budget wise, but it feels so good to be free of money stress even if it’s just for a weekend.

When we made it home Greg started to assemble the shelves and clean out the closets that we planned to put them in; then he proceeded to clean out his tubs for the third time! Greg is a major pack-rat and with some items I can understand, but with the others – eh? For example: Greg had a backpack that he kept from his freshman year of high school and it had a pop-tart package in it that he had no idea how old it was!! He threw it away AFTER cutting off the tag. Greg has thrown out A LOT of stuff since this past summer (all his pictures, cards, and letters from his ex and old flames, old shirts and jackets, bills from when he lived in NY briefly, old game boxes, etc) but he still has about three tubs full of ‘stuff’ (keep in mind, he had about 8 tubs all together). Greg even has a gift from his exes Mom that he doesn’t use and has been stored in a closet for years. I suggested he throw it out or give it back to his ex as it probably has more sentimental value to her than him. Hey, I used to be a pack-rat as well but quickly got out of that habit when I moved from home to Baltimore in 2002. When I think about keeping something I ask myself is it worth it to keep moving it with me (especially if Greg and I have to move this summer). Some things, yes; for example: I’ve kept all of Amelia’s hospital papers from when she was born and her hand made knitted hat as well as one article of clothing from each stage of her growth. Other than that, all the stuff from my past can fit in a shoe box. And, right now, all that I have from my past is one picture from my wedding and a single sheet of the guest book from the wedding and both these items include the people that are no longer here (my aunt Ellie and Adam’s Grandparents and Dad). I just don’t have a desire to keep things that I won’t look at or see on a regular basis. So, it’s an on going ‘issue’ for Greg to stop being such a pack-rat. He’s doing better, but still feels the need to save certain things (though I don’t see the need).

Once Greg was done with his packing of the tubs (again), we installed Diablo II onto my laptop and I played for about an hour (and I’ll more than likely play again). I played this game once or twice many moons ago and Greg has been wanting to buy the game pack each time we go to Target so this time we bought it. When I look for a game, whether console or PC, I have such a hard time finding something and it’s due to my attention span; I will look at the contents of the game and can tell if I’ll be able to focus on the game or not and generally I don’t buy anything. I tend to like the simple. non methodical thinking games. Games such as Diner Dash (which has a wedding version that’s just as fun). I see games as a way to relax and playing something that is going to tick me off isn’t a way to relax in my mind. I guess I just don’t get into games as others.

Speaking of games, Greg and I were talking about purchasing a Wii with our tax refunds and as we were talking about it we asked ourselves when would we have the time to play it. We hardly watch any TV now a days (I bought two movies on Black Friday that I haven’t even taken out of that annoying plastic wrap) and we haven’t touched our PS2 since July since we spend our time either on the computer, reading a book or magazine, cleaning, or just talking to one another. I would hate to spend the amount of money on a Wii (and all the accessories) and not use it. So, now we’re debating about buying a Wii; which is so weird when a few months ago we couldn’t wait until tax season so we could buy one!

Ugh, I can’t believe it’s almost 1am and I am here writing rather than in bed. This is so going to throw off my sleep schedule!!

Yeah … No (and more)

Um.

Yeah.

It didn’t happen.

Greg and I were just as lazy today as we were yesterday. Although, we did go out. We did an uneventful trip to Costco and placed the birthday cake order for Amelia’s First Birthday and picked up some odds and ends (like tin foil) and then went over to Target (no run in with his ex) and bought a lot of Christmas stuff for next year at 75% off (Christmas wrap, cards, etc), as well as some new pajama’s and sippy cups for Amelia.

We did do a little more laundry today and I kinda sorta cleaned up – some.

Update: Greg and I cleaned the condo. It’s 10:53 as I type.

Moving on…

While cleaning, I came across an old ‘jump drive’ and downloaded the pictures and files from it. There were pictures going back to 2001 (of Kara) and up to 2005 (last PRP Christmas Party):

PRP Party December 2005

and here I am in 2003

Charlie and Jess Christmas 2003

And, here I am for Christmas 2007:

Greg and Jess MBC Christmas Party 2007

a lot of changes between those years! The 2003 photo (the middle one) was a few months after I married Adam (that’s my wedding dress that I am wearing) and the 2005 picture (the top one) is about 6 months after Adam moved out (and Greg and I were friends at the time but he didn’t want to be my ‘date’ so Michele and I went together. Two days after the picture was taken my aunt passed away. I remember my brother and Aaron coming to the party and my brother was so upset and crying about my aunt). Then, there is the final picture of Greg and me taken this year, 2007, for his company holiday party.

And, here’s a picture of Adam (in case any of ya’ll were wondering what he looked like):

Adam circa 2003

that was my favorite picture of him. He’s changed some over the years (less hair on the head), but not much (though I haven’t seen him in nearly a year and a half).

So, that was a small trip down memory lane. Well, sorta. I don’t feel any nostalgia with the pictures (other than remembering my aunt dying from cancer); the pictures (the ones from yester year) don’t really hold any emotional reaction for me.

meh. don’t have enough mental energy to finish the thoughts. It’s 12:04am and I am heading off to bed.

End of the week – End of the year (almost)

So, as I was sitting at my desk today – staring at the calendar that I made – I realized that I haven’t worked a full week this entire month! So far, I’ve missed five days! Two were scheduled days and the other three were call outs. I’ve never missed that much work in one month!

Today was payday and there was a little unexpected bonus money!! Who doesn’t like extra money when you’re not expecting it?! Also, as I expected, my commission payout was horrible – but some is better than none.

Ok, so I am finally starting to get a little excited about Christmas. I know I’ve been writing for nearly two months about how excited I am getting about Christmas, but this excitement feeling is different, it’s like a realization excitement. It feels like this is something I can’t explain in words on here. Grr. I need to take a class and learn how to express my thoughts and feelings with words.

Moving on…

So, I couldn’t wait to get out of work today. I had a lot to do! The plan was to get my nails done and head over to Target to get Aprils gift (since I didn’t go during lunch today). But it took way too long for me to get my nails done. But, Greg was planning on going to Target anyway to finish up a few last minutes gifts for me as well to get Amelia’s first stocking and a stocking for me. Well, as I mentioned, I never made it to Target, so I called Greg to tell him to get the crock pot and to get something for Olivia. Well, he got the crock-pot. Nothing else.

My nails, on the other hand, are great! I had the technician cut them way short for a few reasons: 1) so I could type with much fewer errors; and 2) so I can pick up Amelia without scratching her.

So, with the recent realization (earlier today while at work and staring at the calendar) that Amelia’s FIRST BIRTHDAY is only three short weeks (from tomorrow) away, I have begun the invitation creation. I don’t have the time to work on hand made invitations so we’re going to use eVite. It’s a pretty cool website (been using it for many years); now I just have to hunt for all my email address and collect the ones from work.

OMG! Amelia is turning one in three weeks! Yes, I’ve been watching the count down on the front page but I guess I haven’t really been paying attention with all else that’s been going on these past few weeks (baby being sick, me recovering from the tooth extraction, etc). Wow! A year already! It’s really been a year. A full circle of time. Damn. I can’t believe it (sorta). I remember all that I was going through this time last year as if it was the other day!! All the anxiety and fears, taking the insulin shots before bedtime, opening all the presents from my Mom and each thing was for Amelia and nothing but a package of underwear for me. Oh my god, where there so many emotions going through me – more than I can share on here. I had so many fears (more than just giving birth); even after Amelia was here. I had no idea what to do. But, all is well and we’re now going to celebrate one year with the knowledge of many more to come (and maybe with future additions).

I have that nervous/excited butterfly feeling in my stomach. Maybe it has something to do with the excitement about my divorce finally coming to an end; maybe the fact that this our, Greg and me, first Christmas together as a couple and that we’re a family, maybe there is something magical about this Christmas or just the conclusion of 2007 nearing and all the events, good and bad, that I and we, have experienced are just another chapter in life, something to ‘chock one up to…”

Greg and I have begun to discuss our goals for 2008; things we want to accomplish (the standard debt reduction, weight reduction, savings increasing, etc) and what special trips or things to do to make 2008 memorable (such as going to see a game at Yankee’s stadium before it’s demolished). One thing is for sure, I can’t wait until 2008 arrives!

Two Years Ago…

It’s been two years, to the day (and nearly the hour as I write), since Aunt Ellie passed away.

Here’s what I wrote before I left to say good bye to her at the Hospital and here’s what I wrote when I came home after being gone for a week.

It was that week that Greg (aka: Copyguy) and I became more than friends. Prior to my aunts death, Greg and I rarely talked on the phone, but the week I was at my Moms, we talked every single night. And, we never missed a night since (except on a few occasions).

Yesterday, as it was snowing, a memory came to me. It was snowing on the exact same day in 2005 and then a flood of emotions and memories returned.